Chapter 28
Inside the car, now back on the road, we were looking at the photos that the cheerful couple had taken of us.
They had been so enthusiasticâif it hadnât been for Yoonjaeâs abrupt farewell, they might still be taking pictures of us now.
Either way, traces of the café remained vividly in her phone, leaving her with an odd sense of wonder.
The pictures all looked similar, but among them was one that stood out.
The very first shot.
[Why, isnât this the one?]
Click.
It had been taken at the exact moment they looked at each other in surprise.
Strangely, the photo showed no awkwardness. They even looked as though they got along wellâŠ
âNo, that canât be right. What am I even thinking?â
This must be what people call a scamâsomething that tricks the eye.
Shaking her head at the memory of that fleeting moment when the picture was snapped, she turned to glance sideways.
A quick glance.
ââŠâŠâ
Her eyes just barely moved toward the driverâs seat, where Yoonjae sat silently, fully focused on driving.
As the memory of his warm grip came back to her, she quickly flipped her phone over.
Thump, thump.
âItâs just because it feels strange. Thatâs all.â
As a child, there had been no one to take her photo. As an adult, there was neither the time nor anyone to take photos withâaside from graduation albums or occasional event snapshots.
That was why, being photographed with someone like this was almost a first for her. The unfamiliarity alone must be the reason for her pounding heart.
Yes, that had to be it.
Also, she had never thought sheâd be taking photos with this face.
âMy face.â
Could she even call it âhersâ?
Looking at the reflection in the car window, a heaviness seeped into her heart.
âIn another way, this is dangerous.â
The longer she lived in this body, the more natural it feltâlike the face of Go Woori was fading away along with her.
She couldnât tell if it was just adaptation, or if her soul was slowly being swallowed by this body.
If only there were some kind of signpostâbut no, that was too much to hope for.
ââŠPhew.â
Lifting her shoulders with the force that pressed against her back, she let them drop and fixed her eyes on the scenery rushing past outside.
The car sped on, never stopping, heading straight for its destination.
A little later, the car halted, and they stepped out into a strange place.
Across the road stood a columbarium. Its white façade radiated solemnity, and it stretched so wide it couldnât be taken in at a glance.
It was the weekend, so there were many visitors, yet the air remained startlingly quietâexcept in one corner.
âCome this way, weâve got plenty to choose from!â
âThis way, please!â
The flower shop owners were calling out to passing visitors, their voices breaking the silence.
âPretty lady, over here!â
Though the clamor felt somewhat inappropriate for the place, it oddly pulled her out of her daze.
âShall we go there?â
ââŠâŠâ
It wasnât because someone called her âpretty.â
Ignoring Yoonjaeâs silent gaze, she followed him into a shop.
âWhat am I even doing hereâŠâ
Such feelings would probably never end, not as long as she kept thinking.
Gathering herself, she looked over the colorful flowers and asked quietly:
âWhat do you think about Go Woori?â
Her tone was calm, almost flat.
âStill nothing?â
Though his voice was a little heavier than usual, given the place they were in, it wasnât hard to understand.
Yoonjae tilted his head slightly.
âDo I need to have thoughts about her?â
As expected, a detached response.
She shook her head and murmured, almost absentmindedly:
âNo, of course not. Itâs just⊠weird, you know? Normally, we wouldâve gone on living our lives, and Go Woori would probably be in America by now, living well.â
There was no point in questioning anymore how such an impossible thing had happened.
But the bitterness was inescapable.
Yoonjae, however, was struck by the accuracy of the name she mentioned.
âI thought she was going to Hawaii.â
Ah.
That had been a secretâonly she and her secretary knew that Woori had planned to stop in Hawaii first before going on to the U.S. mainland.
She shrugged it off nonchalantly.
âHawaii is U.S. territory too. Anyway, thatâs not really the point. What I wanted to ask wasâŠâ
Changing the subject quickly, she continued:
âI felt sorry for her. What about you?â
ââŠâŠâ
âDid you ever feel even a little sorry for her?â
Ever since sheâd discovered the sincerity of Wooriâs affections in her diary, she had wondered about this.
Of course, it wasnât a question with a right answer. She just knew she wouldnât get another chance to ask after today.
But his answer was as indifferent as before.
âNot really.â
Spoken in the same detached tone, as if it had nothing to do with him.
[Why should I?]
Exactly like before, as if Go Woori had never mattered to him.
Throb.
âWhat is that?â
A sudden tightness squeezed her chest, and she bit her lip. Her heart occasionally did thisâconstricting or shuddering violently.
âDo I have some illness?â
Rubbing at her chest absentmindedly, she watched Yoonjae pick out a bouquet with red roses as the focal point.
âShe wouldnât want to be thought of like that.â
Coincidentally, it was her favorite colorâred.
But for some reason, emotions swelled within her. Cold as he was, she didnât like how casually he dismissed everything.
âHaving money doesnât mean everything.â
âI didnât mean money.â
âThen what?â
Irritation slipped into her tone.
He extended the bouquet to her.
âConviction.â
ââŠâŠâ
âUnshaken.â
Caught off guard, she accepted the flowers he handed her.
They were beautifulâsmall but vibrant.
She was given flowers meant for âher.â And that stirred a storm of thoughts.
âGo WooriâŠâ
It was only now, at this place, that Yoonjae thought of her again.
From the very beginning to the end, she had always been proud, with bright, shining eyesâthat was why their engagement had ended.
He had wanted a doll that would obey his will.
And he had found one: the woman in front of him.
Until recently, she had been exactly the doll he wanted.
But nowâŠ
âSo thatâs how you saw it.â
Could he really call those radiant eyes before him the eyes of a doll?
Her gaze kept pulling him in, more and more.
Unaware of the way he looked at her, she stared at the flowers in her hands and swallowed a bitter smile.
Perhaps Yoonjae really did understand her well.
She had always pushed forward, unwilling to fall behind simply because she was alone.
She had never shrunk back. Whatever the circumstances, she had lived each day doing her best for herself.
âBecause I am me.â
The encouragement she had once heard at an event echoed again within her.
She lifted her head and looked at him.
âIâm glad.â
In that moment, even within Aejeongâs body, she was entirely Go Woori.
Did that stir something strange in him? Yoonjaeâs eyes narrowed slightly.
âDo you⊠know something about Go Woori?â
Her heart jolted, hot and sharp.
ââŠWhy?â
âYou just seem that way.â
His perception was annoyingly sharpâtoo sharp.
The Go Woori of the past might have laughed it off dramatically, but today, she didnât feel like it.
After wetting her lips a few more times, she parted them to speak:
âItâs just⊠pitiful.â
Neither denial nor confirmationâjust a vague answer.
After paying, she walked ahead, leaving Yoonjae to follow. The cold breeze brushed past as she added quietly, almost drifting on the wind:
âIt just feels like she left too soon.â
Her faint murmur held many meanings and scattered away with the breeze.
ââŠâŠâ
He had noticed beforeâsometimes she spoke as if she were someone else entirely.
It happened too often to be dismissed as a slip, but Yoonjae said nothing.
âLetâs go.â
For now, all he could do was follow herâlike a flickering candle against the wind.
They had already checked the location of Go Wooriâs niche, so there was no hesitation as they walked on.
Step by step, as reality drew closer, she felt a strange calm settle within her.
âMaybe⊠maybe Iâll finally be able to let go.â
It was vague, but the feeling was strong.
She was walking toward Go Wooriâtoward the self she had never truly let go of.
And just as she followed behind Yoonjae and turned the cornerâ
Thud.
âOuch.â
Looking at the flowers, she hadnât noticed he had stopped, and bumped her head into his back.
The surprise was greater than the pain. She stepped back and asked:
âWhatâs wrong?â
But Yoonjae didnât move an inch.
âWhatâs going onâŠ?â
Confused by his unusual behavior, she tilted her head and stepped around him.
And then froze in place, just as he had.
Her face turned deathly pale, as if all blood had drained away.
Her eyes trembled violently, as though struck by an earthquake.
Without even realizing it, her voice roseânot from her mind, but from somewhere deep inside.
ââŠFather?â
So lost in the sight before her, she didnât notice Yoonjaeâs questioning gaze turning her way.