Chapter 6
It had been about four days since I began living in Glacies Castle.
Thanks to Ashaâs attentive care and the priest who checked on me twice a day, my body was recovering quickly. But my heart was far from at ease.
The entire castle was busy preparing to receive His Majesty the Emperor and his delegation. The more time passed, the heavier my unease grew.
I doubted whether I could fulfill the role of the Grand Dukeâs fiancĂ©e properly, and I doubted myself.
Even without strength, if I have the courage to take one step forwardâŠ
I repeated those words to myself whenever anxiety threatened to overwhelm me. My ability to hear the voices of trees was useless in welcoming the Emperor.
And since I didnât even know what cards Russell held, recklessly revealing my own would have been foolish.
I still wasnât certain if he was a good man or a villain.
The difference from life in the Dukeâs household was that, no matter how hard I listened, I couldnât hear anyone speaking ill of me. The castle was simply too busy.
Perhaps he silenced them beforehand. That would make sense.
But the simple absence of scornful looks or words of hatred was enough to bring me peace.
When I lived in the Dukeâs estate, my sister always mocked and belittled me. I was constantly worried about offending the Duchess, to the point that my stomach hurt from the stress.
That didnât mean I had done nothing for the past two days.
Russell had been visiting me regularly.
âStraighten your back, consciously. Shoulders back. Keep your lower stomach firm, donât relax it.â
Most of the time, I practiced walking with my arm linked through Russellâs in the reception hall where we would greet His Majesty. He corrected the angle of my steps, taught me how to walk gracefully without bending my waist.
Of course, I had received basic lessons in etiquette back at the Dukeâs house, but since I had never once received an invitation to any event, I never had a chance to apply them. I had forgotten most of it, so I had to start from the basics again.
âLike this?â
âExcellent.â
To my surprise, he was not stingy with praise. He said he only gave compliments or criticism strictly based on fact.
And so three more days passed, and on the seventh dayâ
His Majesty the Emperor arrived at Glacies Castle. Russell had prepared in advance to greet him, and aside from Asha and two attendants helping me dress, everyone in the castle was mobilized to receive the delegation.
I had risen before dawn. I bathed in lukewarm water scented with oils, and Asha applied camellia oil to my hair.
She gave me a light makeupâjust enough not to feel heavyâand dressed me in a gown that didnât cling tightly to my body. Finally, she put me in low-heeled shoes so I wouldnât have trouble walking.
When my preparations were finished, Asha clapped her hands with an emotional little cry.
âPerfect! My lady.â
âRâReally?â
âYes! You are truly beautiful.â
I had no way of checking, but hearing the compliment made me feel shy. Just as I was about to rise from the chair with my cane, a knock sounded.
Before I could answer, the door opened, and a familiar presence approached.
âAll ready?â
âYes! She can meet His Majesty as she is.â
âGood. Letâs go.â
I rose, taking Russellâs offered hand, now so familiar.
Tap, tap. The sound of my cane striking the floor echoed unnaturally in the silent corridor.
Russell walked beside me without a word. Each of his steps rang out against the floor.
The result of all our practice was clear: walking arm-in-arm with him down to the reception hall felt almost natural.
And yet, the thought of meeting the Emperor made my fingertips tremble slightly.
Will it really be alright for me to meet His Majesty?
Just as unease welled up again, Russell snapped his fingers before my face.
It was a signal to halt before the reception room doors. I stopped.
He whispered to me quietly.
âDonât be nervous. Even before His Majesty.â
âArenât you nervous, Lord Russell?â
Perhaps he had noticed the trembling in my fingers. He clasped the hand that was hooked into his arm with his free hand.
WarmâŠ
My chilled fingertips thawed in his heat. That alone loosened some of the tightness inside me.
âHis Majesty is the ruler of the Empire, yes.â
I heard him chuckle softly.
I was certainâhe must be smiling with that confident expression of his.
âBut the North is my domain. Meeting him here is no different from walking through my own garden. Why would I be nervous?â
Such astonishing confidence.
Where did it come from, I wondered.
But right now⊠I want to lean on that confidence.
The Emperor was the most exalted being in the Empire. I had never, in this life or the previous, had even the slightest chance of meeting him.
Perhaps sensing my continued nerves, Russell spoke again.
âHold on tightly to my arm. Even before His Majesty, you are still my betrothed.â
ââŠAlright.â
I drew a deep breath. Once the door opened, it would no longer be practiceâit would be real.
Russell knocked twice, precisely, and the hinges creaked as the doors opened.
The first thing I noticed was the warmth of the air, far different from our practice. The reception hall had been heated so thoroughly that the air felt dry on my skin.
It was quiet. I could sense a presence in the distanceâit was the Emperor.
The attendants and soldiers must have been dismissed.
Tap, tap. I counted my steps silently, keeping my back straight just as Russell had taught me.
Twelve.
At the end of the count, I stopped, set my cane against the sofa, lifted my skirts, and bowed my head.
âI am Fianna of House Lucianos.â
No response came immediately.
Was he looking over my appearance? Or had I made some mistake in my bow?
Noâthat sharp instinct told me His Majestyâs gaze was fixed on my eyes.
Then the Emperor spoke.
ââŠA pleasure, Lady Fianna. Forgive me for summoning you on such a long journey.â
His voice was calmer, gentler than I had expected.
So this is His Majestyâs voiceâŠ
I had imagined something far more oppressive and authoritative.
âYou may sit, Lady Fianna.â
âThank you, Your Majesty.â
I carefully seated myself without making a sound. Only once he saw I was settled did Russell sit.
Still, I couldnât help but wonderâwhat did the Emperor look like?
On his birthdays, I had always been locked away as the family disgrace, so I had never even glimpsed him.
Now he was within armâs reach, yet I couldnât see the most august man in the Empire.
My chest feels tightâŠ
As I steadied my breathing, Russell suddenly spoke.
âYour Majesty. Forgive me, but it seems my lady would like a description of you, if you permit.â
A description?
What was he talking about?
This hadnât been planned at all. I froze, but the Emperor apparently nodded, for he gave no objection.
Russell leaned closer. I couldnât pull away, so I endured as his lips drew near my ear.
My earlobe tingled as though it might burst. He smelled faintly of refreshing mint.
âHis Majesty has platinum-blond hair and golden eyes like the sun. His long hair falls to his chest, neatly tied. His eyes are sharp, hawk-like. His cheekbones are slightly pronounced, his nose hooked. But his face is clean-shaven, without a trace of beard.â
His low voice resonated in my ear.
And thenâon the blank canvas of my vision, white lines began to take shape, until a clear image emerged: that of a middle-aged man, clean-cut but lined with deep wrinkles.
Before I could thank him, Russell withdrew.
âYou describe him so smoothly to your fiancĂ©e. When did you two grow so close?â
âThe more I see Lady Fianna, the more captivating she becomes. I canât help myself.â
The Emperor gave a low hum, then replied.
âI was told you had little interest in marriage.â
âAge catches up with us all, Your Majesty. Even I feel a certain emptiness at my side now. I find myself realizing why the elders always said it was good to have a companion.â
âYou, of all people?â
The Emperor burst into hearty laughter, as though hearing a delightful jest.
He was far more human than I had expected, and my thoughts raced ahead.
So Russell isnât on bad terms with himâŠ
After laughing for some time, the Emperor sipped from a teacup. He still chuckled a little before clearing his throat and speaking again.
âTruly, one lives long enough to see anything. To hear such words from you.â
âIf it pleases Your Majesty, then I am honored.â
âHow could I not be pleased?â
The sound of his cup being set down rang out.
Something feels⊠off.
Some other sense told me I was missing something important.
And before long, that feeling was confirmed.
âEven if I didnât raise her myself, she still carries my blood.â
âYour MajestyâŠ!â
Russellâs voice betrayed clear alarm. Mine was no different.
âBâBloodline? What do you mean?â
I knew it was rude, but I couldnât help asking.
This time, His Majestyâs voice was stern as he addressed Russell.
âRussell. You havenât told your betrothed?â
Russell said nothing.
His silence meant only one thingâthat His Majesty had revealed this on purpose.
And the Emperorâs next words hammered the truth in place.
âRussell Glacies is my son.â